I too enjoy meeting & conversing with interesting people, so it is a pleasure to write to you.
" I absolutely love anything colourful, patterned, kitsch, childlike but then I also love anything unusual, dark, unsettling or religious (which for me has a dark edge ). " An interesting statement, & one that speaks very loudly. Perhaps this is why you chose to study Counselling ? Getting to know others, but rarely enjoying talking about yourself.
You sound very interesting, yet sad too. Your statement is a reflection of your childhood. It is also the reason that you chose to study Counselling. You have a heightened sense of awareness too. Possessing such a gift comes about through fear, the dire need to try & get a grip on the situations at home that are happening to you. The insecurity that tears at you, & drives you to take refuge in childlike things today, is a kind of need to remould your childhood into one that you would of liked, but somehow your shadow still holds you back from having. This is represented by your fascination for the darkness that resides in us all.
Perhaps religion has played some part in all of this ?
When you speak of your growth being too subtle, maybe its because you find it difficult to see yourself from a kind perspective ? Time is, after all, just a concept introduced by the Romans. If it takes you one, or even two, lifetimes to resolve the fear inside of you, then so mote it be, but either way, the quickest way to find closure, as you know, is to face it. When you look at the picture it reflects back at you your own terror, your childhood, & you are still intrigued by it.
I studied Psychotherapy, & then later, Psychoanalysis, which included Jungian Dream Analysis. And, I have always had a deep interest in the Occult & Eastern Philosophy. I am a regular at the British Museum, as I feel it holds clues to our own past lives, & Karma.
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