SELF DEVELOPMENT, PT 2: LOVE; LETTING GO OF THE PAST.

 When things begin to change in our lives it can have a dramatic effect upon our ability to function normally. Something heavy & disturbing leaving the psyche will leave a deliberate protruding upon our solar plexus, leaving one feeling groggy & tired.

 This heaviness is a type of issue, if you like, that is slowly working its way through the emotional senses so that when it does finally leave you one always ends up feeling lighter & more agreeable, with more clarity about ones direction.

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 A similar process is comparable to that of eating something disagreeable. Once the ill effect has been felt, the poison will begin the journey of leaving its host, within 24 hours, if you are of healthy structure. One should then begin reverting back ones normal state of mind & body. Although, the issue will always take longer to be rid of, then 24 hours, unless your the Buddha, or someone, for it stubbornly hangs onto the host for as a long as it can because the ego has been convinced it needs to hold onto it, when it doesn`t.

 The actual problem is holding onto things that are no longer good for us. This things that cause us to stay connected to that which no longer enhances our lives, but keeps it attached to the past, are so bad for us that they cause us to live only half a life. Holding onto tangible things such as, items, people, processed food, or non-material things, like unproductive emotions, can have dire effects upon the progression of ones path in life. When one does feel ready to let go of the past, & the process of ` loosening` can take place, the upheaval will begin, but it is usually the most frightening part of the whole process. Fearful because the ego has been convinced that it actually needs this issue to function correctly, & once upon a time, it did. But what protected you when you were four, cannot have a viable place in your psyche when you are thirty four. It cannot, & should not, either. And this is why people get angry & frustrated at not being able to have what others have that they see as good, or healthy. The old wound, the old issue that was inflicted when we were eighteen months is still being held onto. Carl Jung called this the Kingfisher wound. 

 The Kingfisher wound is the first wound inflicted upon the little girl by her mother, & the father upon the son.  In mythology it is represented by the piercing of a testicle of the young Knight. He cannot move it, & needs someone sensitive enough to help him remove it, & fast, yet he cannot ask the person who caused it; his father, & it is just that person that he would dearly love to ask to remove it. The first time a person is inflicted with the Kingfisher energy they are scarred for life. They will need to work things out, but if they are wise they will get there because others who have been scarred by the Kingfisher will arrive at their door to assist, in their own way.

 Being around angry, frustrated people can also leave a strange effect upon the psyche. For anger is also an unproductive emotion, & causes many problem to the owner & recipient. I remember myself being with an ex, & every time I tried to discuss her past with her, you know, so that we could learn & grow, I would literally fall asleep. She had this disconcerting feeling of making me fall asleep every time she became anxious. But what it was was an ability she had to self-protect. If there were any threats coming from the `outside`, ones that could open her up, then she had this formidable inner power that could knock anyone out. She was in effect hiding behind her repressed anger. 

 Don`t hang onto unproductive emotions they serve no purpose other than to keep you locked to your misery. By staying attached to the past pain you stay attached to an unproductive, unhappy life. Real people love you, & want to be near you, but as long as your attached to your lies & repression, nobody will be able to get near to you. That`s sad, & your going to see good people coming in, then going out again. Don`t be a side-liner, watching your world slip away, eaten up by those that give nothing. Smile back, show love, & above all, do not be afraid. The good ones will always reach out to protect you, should you feel open. And, guess what, the real ones won`t expect anything in return either. They are happy to assist beautiful people because they can spot one when one appears. 

 The next time you spot a beautiful soul, & you do because your used to them leaving you, get near to it, just like the children do, they don`t have any inhibitions, they rush into beauty, straight away, get close to it. You know you can trust it !

 Love, always

SELF DEVELOPMENT, PT 3: LOVE. GREAT POTENTIAL FOR THE SOUL.

 During meditation yesterday I saw my late brothers face looking in on me. He pointed to a wall which was very old, & had much ivy hanging down it. As I continued to mediate upon the wall I saw that it began to vanish. Beyond the apparition I was able to see a wonderful scene of beauty. In the distance I could see many people wandering around. They were happy, as if in love. Some held hands, others sat by a stream, children rode bikes, some ran, all the while the sun was out & the grass was so green. It seemed as though this magical scene was taking place in the worlds largest park on the sunniest day ever. This incredible vision of beauty, with its great park, was so much more than anything I have ever witnessed or even thought of before. This great apparition with everything in it that makes a day special. 

 Smells came through that I drew me to recall images from lazy summer school holidays in the Sussex countryside. Bees, & things buzzed around, & I knew everything was nice there. The sun on my face made me think that life was good there, wherever it was. As the sun shone children played, the streams gurgled, & kites flew in the sky. The scene filled me a sense that I had not one problem. That there were no problems with careers, money, people, love, emotions, any of the senses,or normal situations one goes through daily. Everything there, I was left feeling, was secure, sorted, & settled. It was as though problems that I think of as issues simply did not exist. Everything was just wonderful there. Then slowly, as if by magic, the wall slowly came back shutting off my view to this most glorious scene, & I felt frustrated, angry even, that it pushed me away, along with Nathans face smiling at me. The scene was gone & I wanted it back, but the more I tried to recall it all I kept seeing was the wall with its Ivy hanging down, from where, I cannot tell you. 

  Later, as I trained in the gym, I kept thinking about my glorious apparition, then suddenly I realised that my late brother had shared with me a glimpse of where he is. He had come through to show me that I, you, or anyone, can visit the same place he resides in, whenever they want. I could not comprehend what he had allowed me to see, & that I must surely of advanced to a stage beyond any place I have ever been before because I have never experienced anything like this visual. An incredible experience, & one that I think will continue to resonate with me long after today. I hope so anyway because I think that this will improve my mind & spirit. The way I look at things from now on.

 Perhaps the wall is only condition that one must learn about. See through the wall & you will see through your own blockages, your issues, & be at peace within. Once one has then have then they can join in with the scene, or just allow the energy of that great place to infiltrate their own consciousness, & live a better life. This was, I am sure, a scene from Nirvana.

 A scene from Nirvana. Incredible. The potential is there for us to see deeper & with more perspective. That there is nothing to be worried about. That everything is as it should be. I`m going to allow this beauty to come into my life & transfer its energy into all that I do.

 Will you ?

SELF DEVELOPMENT, PT 4: LOVE SUCCESS, OR LOVE ?

 When the time comes to move, you got to get to it. If you don`t move when the feeling to shine takes you, the opportunity may not be there a second time. Life is like that. There are times to move, times to stay still, times to speak, times to say nothing, times to run away. If Your thinking correctly, your going to understand what I`m talking about. Because if a person thinks correctly then they can achieve anything.

 Think correctly, & your thinking like a winner. Think like a winner, & you become one, instantly.

  Emotional responsibility is what you are going to have to tune into though if you want to get to thinking like a winner, & that means dumping your ego. Don`t lose sight of yourself either, but getting too wrapped up in your ego is going to cause you problems, if you want to get on. Know the difference, & learn it fast, because whatever is holding you back you can bet its ego-driven.

 The next stage of connecting with the thing you want to get into is something that going to take real courage. This is really tough, but burn this issue out of your psyche, & your going to make leaps & bounds unlike anything you have ever achieved before; learn to give. Fall in love with being of service to others. Turn yourself into a walking act of selflessness, & do it without conditions. If you do this there will always be plenty more for you, so don`t worry about going without, because you wont. Hang onto things, & you will suffer. Begin embracing an unconditional stance when giving to others, & you will live fully. Live fully, & you will become rich in whatever you wish to achieve.

 Now, its probably worth mentioning that ever since Napolean Hill wrote Think & Grow Rich, back in the 1930`s, there has been much written on how to achieve successful living. And, by & large, its actually not difficult to achieve it. However, the one thing that Hill never mentioned in his seminal work was just how to put his lessons into practise. I`m not going to regurgitate what the man has already written about. What I am sharing with you are my own experiences in how I was able to achieve a plateau that enabled me to begin establishing a sound platform to work from so that I would be able to achieve lasting happiness away fro the difficulties of attachment. This way I was able to relax & understand my place within the universe, & how it functions in relation to my needs & desires. It not been an easy route getting to this stage. In fact, its nearly killed me at times, but somewhere inside I always knew that I would get through the fundamental part of the process towards self-actualisation, somehow. It has been difficult, & challenging, but worth it, because the dividends the universe is pays me now is phenomenal. Get through your Nigredo in one piece, & the rest is much easier. Learn to be honest with yourself & you will burn through the issues that have stopped you from living as fully as you can do.

  The ethos has been around forever. Be honest with yourself & failure cannot affect you. Think about hanging on to things & you will become a failure. Be courageous & to stay open. Don`t project your inner power onto another, own it, & grow. If you gave little you will receive little. Your going to literally suffocate to death under your own dead weight, because there`s no room for movement. If your doing this then your going to get emotionally & spiritually ill. Next time your out take a look around you & see how many are suffering that fate, without even being aware of it. So,  master this, & you got yourself onto a decent level of emotional competence, & then you will be able to establish an inner balance that will not let you down.

 Everything in the universe functions from a perspective of harmony, & it is this that you are fundamentally seeking as you burn through your issues. The more one burns through their unresolved issues the quicker one can get to a place of inner harmony. Harmony with the universe is harmony within yourself, & that is the spot which is complete love. Once you see this place within you then you its much easier to understand that what you thought you were seeking your not. What you are seeking, along with every other pilgrim is Love. And, there is nothing more important in your life then Love. It is love that heals your wounds & brings about the success that you thought the other things would bring. They don`t, it is Love that brings it in, the other things are just objects that represent your detachment from your Love. The reason that you do not have the things that you think you crave is because really you crave Love. Because you are so far removed from your feelings about it, you have projected that emptiness onto the object of your desire. Sure, the universe will give you what you want, literally, & that includes a quick route to your inner Love. If you have that Love, then you will have everything. Once you have everything, then you have all the objects that you will want. However, once you have the Love returned to your heart your desire for the objects you craved will not mean anything. If you can begin understanding just how your emotions communicate with you it will be easy to see just how simple this concept is. One does not need to complicate it with intellectualism or ego, this simply defeats the point.Just start today to begin noticing the distinct pattern of how your subconscious mind works. Then let it direct & lead you into the easiest route to your success. If you do this you will begin to see how you bring about the unnecessary hardships  that have obstructed Love in your life.

 Whether you want a nice home, nice partner, plenty to eat, lots of money, or even no more money, understand this; it all comes from knowing your emotions. If you want any of those things then your in need of Love. If your broke its not because you have no money, that`s just an illusion played on you by your sub-conscious mind, because its easier to handle then it is to feel unloved, abandoned, or abused, what it really means is that your not in Love with yourself. It means your not honesty with yourself & about life. Understand this concept, & you will find the quickest route to your success, to your Soul.

  Knowing yourself intimately is assuring yourself the best life possible. Why would you not give that gift to yourself ?

 P