LOVE. A KARMIC CONNECTION TO THE HEART.

 Last night, I spoke with friends about karma. The process that enables to either move slowly through life with grave problems continuously worry us, or with great speed, with no issues to hold us back. We came to the conclusion that love burns through karma, & karma if it is resolved will naturally transform into a different type of situation. But what does it change into if we resolve it, & can we ever resolve it, fully ?

 Well, Karma is Karma, that is clear & it is part of who we are as individuals. And, I personally do not think that it can be changed, but I do think that one can transform negative Karma into much better quality Karma.` If you don`t like your life, you can change it `, right ? Yes, I believe that life is as simple as that, but what is not so simple is the actual changing of your life, because it means burning through so many issues that many do not have the courage to face, or acknowledge.

 Karma can change your destiny, & if you begin to see just how integral Karma is to the way you live & function in your world, then you will understand just how easy it is to get a a lot more pleasure out of your existence. But, if you happen to be on of the few that has a very happy & pleasurable life, then you probably don`t need to bother reading anymore of this, but if you can be totally honest with yourself for a few minutes you will see that your not satisfied, but just contented. And, that`s denial, so stick with me a while.

  By aligning yourself with your Karma you will begin to groove closely with your destiny. This is the way that you will begin to live the life that you really want to live, & not some nasty quasi-role that consistently keeps you one step away from dying.

 Life was never supposed to be a hard slog. We were not supposed to get up of a morning feeling dread at the thought of the day ahead. We were never supposed to be at the mercy of our emotions day in day out allowing them to drive us to despair. Never, it makes no sense whatsoever to be under the occupation of dreaded thoughts that limit our capacity to live fully. All that means is that one has a lack of understanding about how Karma works.Only that causes us to feel this way, nothing else. Dis-ease, dis-at-ease. Ignorance obstructs a person from enjoying life as it was always intended to be; a stroll through a valley on a sunny afternoon. This is how life should be, & not the continual struggle it has become. Anxiety, depression & stress is not part of our evolutionary programming, much the same as processed food is not meant to be eaten, but we still do eat it, & it still screws us up internally. Time to stop this madness right now, & acknowledge how easy it is to do so.

 Lets see how it works, & how we can change it for the better, & for ever.

 As a Post Graduate I studied Psycho-analysis. It was intriguing, boring, beautiful &, at times, so intense, it nearly killed me. I continued studying right up to the stage of my Masters. After that I took various positions of employment, all mundane, & pretty much the same as the ones I had taken before my formal education begun. These jobs were meant to allow me to pay for my courses, which they did, b ut the problem came when I refused to stop doing them, even though it ceased being good for me to continue working in them. They were not important, nor incredibly well-paid, but sadly, even frighteningly, I continued to work in them long after I had completed my studies. I never once attempted to work in the field of Analysis, not until much later, anyway, & then only for a brief period. Something was wrong, but I could not bring myself to acknowledge exactly what it was. I was miserable, sad & depressed. Out of sync with myself.

  Not until much later was I able to begin seeing just how much these mundane, boring jobs had taught me. These jobs, & the people I met whilst employed there had, I realised later, taught me so much about life & how to function properly then any of the formal education that I had achieved heretofore. Yet, I continued to feel guilty about not working as a Therapist, & made damn sure that I stayed in denial over it too, all the while I remaining in these grim positions.

 As a Psychoanalyst I knew my onions & had worked in long time placement positions, & enjoyed it too. I had learnt much about the art & wisdom needed to be an effective Analyst. But, I could not bring myself to take a position as a clinical analyst, or even as a counsellor. I could not bear working with others who were depressed like I was. That would of been like staring at myself in the mirror, like admitting I had problems, which I did, serious ones, but I could not bring myself to admit it. I needed to stay in denial for the sake of my health. Working in a clinical environment would of been unsuitable for me in those days, so I simply stayed away from them.

 At first it didn`t seem to bother me, but later the conflict & the suppression became an issue for me. I continued taking mundane positions, staying for short periods of time before leaving, always in some perceived fit of pique. Then came the Police Service, I joined up. Very much looking forward to the position of a serving Officer within a professional organisation would afford me. I was excited about the change it heralded, the potential it allowed for transformation, the continual access to Psychotherapy. More importantly, the chance it gave me to, at last, make a solid go of my life. Then, after a while, true to form, I found fault & left, but not before causing serious problems with my Superiors. The pattern was the same as all the previous positions. Take a position, well below my functioning capacity, enjoy it for a while, then begin seeing flaws everywhere, & finally, leave.

 Did I hear you say, " Dudes got low self esteem ? ", well you would be right. That is exactly what I had, no capacity to evaluate myself for the purpose of self worth, whatsoever. No self esteem & no self worth, Just a big bag of vulnerability & contradictions that served the one & only purpose of stalling me from getting on in life, or was it ?

  Today I can see that my natural Karmic path had been rolling out all along. At the time I could`nt see this, all I ever saw was that I was sabotaging myself, & stopping progression entering my life. I was sub-consciously holding myself back from moving in a direction simply because I did not feel confident nor ready to go with it. I lacked the courage of my convictions because I was unready to do that at that time. But lacked the foresightedness to know that my Karmic path was that, but not at that time, other issues had to be dealt with first.

 As I write to you today about Karma its easy for me to share with you the faults that are easily attributed to self-sabotage. If they are left at that then that is exactly what they become. However, if I go further with my theory then it becomes simple to see that my intention all along was to drive myself to be the best I can be. Knowing that I was, either in a rubbish position, or firing below my capacity level, or else in a position that I was simply not ready for at that time. What caused my mistakes was impatience. I pushed myself because I was unable to handle what I was going through at the time, depression. I could not embrace or value what I was going through because it was diluting my ego, & that was terrifying for me. Vulnerability caused me to ignore the reasons that I had come to for not wanting to remain in any of the positions that I had sabotaged. I pretended that they were not good enough for me when all along they were, but just that the timings were wrong.

 Now I can see that all these the positions were superb for me really, & were meant to of happened for me. I chose them so that I could pay for my studies, & not be emotionally challenged by a job, leaving me free to pursue education, which I adore. The problem came later when I chose to return to the same jobs after I had graduated. This was emotionally suicidal for me because it meant that I was putting off working professionally. Later, joining the Police Service felt like the right thing for me. I knew that it would be good for me get involved & utilise my skills, but the timing was wrong for me. As usual, ego was carrying me & not allowing my Karmic path to guide me, & that was dangerous.

 Clearly the Police is part of my destiny, but because I had the feeling to do it back then I was unable to see just how far out of reach it was for me then. But, & this where I get back to my original discourse on Karma, what I learnt about myself through the Police, through my time there, was about as valuable as it gets for a person, making me a better man for the future. Just like it turned out to be with the other positions.

 You see, & this is my point, if we make a decision to do something & then it becomes an obsessive thought it may be that we need to prove to ourselves that we can achieve that objective. This is especially true if we were told as children that we would not be able to do something, for whatever reasons. This way when failure does arrive it becomes so awful that we simply cannot handle it effectively, & have to prove to ourselves that we can do it , &, of course, others wrong. We go into a form of denial which saves us from the feelings of failure, rejection, loss. These are the effects that being out of touch with our destiny, our Karma, leaves within us. When the timings right, & we have resolved that which has screwed us up previously then we can return to our original goal, & succeed, naturally.

 M goal was not to be a Police Officer, a Psychoanalyst, or even in a string of mundane jobs, but a person who wants to show people how to live a healthy, fuller life. A life where you win, & succeed in all you do. What this means is that I was supposed to of completed what I did, not necessarily the actual roles, these are unimportant. For I am an Officer, a Psychoanalyst, I`m a man who can do mundane jobs if he has to. The point I am making, & this is the nucleus of the whole essay, is that my Karma is taking me through a string of life-situations that all have a common thread running through them.

 Every work related situation I have experienced, & everything else, has a thread running through it. It is the same in all areas of my life. My life is circumambulatory, & there is nothing is linear here except the fact that it consistently changes. There is a pattern in everything I do, & experience, & the whole point of it is to see how the pattern weaves through our lives. This is Karma. The pattern is Karma, but how I cope with the pattern is cause & effect. And, how I deal with the fall out of the cause & effect is my experience. What I remember &, therefore, choose to retain within my consciousness will become my experience of the situations. Not being emotionally ready to become a member of a professional organisation like the Police, at that time, left me with a negative experience of my time there. Now, because I know that it is Karmic, & that it will reappear again, but only once I have resolved the issue that stopped it happening earlier, namely that I did not feel ready for it to happen then because I had to learn more about the role before undertaking it.

 So, can I choose to drive along another path if I would like to ? My Karmic destination is rooted, not in what I do, but in the spirit in which I do it. I can assist people, or I can assist myself, if I want to. How I do it is of no relevance really. How I view myself in the role (s) I choose in my life is totally a choice for my consciousness. Like music & art that side of things are totally subjective. I may enjoy listening to Sun Ra as I write today, but tomorrow I may want The Beatles on as I write. It is of no concern what we choose to do as roles. This depends on where we are emotionally, it has little to do with your Karma, only in as much as that you are in the spirit of what you are supposed to be doing.

 I hope that this essay has gone a little way in sharing with you some thoughts on Karma, & how I see its place in my life. I have not consciously tried to enforce my opinions on anyone intentionally, but if I have left you feeling this way then please accept my apologies. It was not my intention to offend anyone. This has been a small, somewhat rushed, essay on Karma, & just some personal views that may, or may not, go some way in shining light in places where previously there was none. It maybe that you totally disagree with all I have said, & want to string me up ? I have spent many years considering how Karma works, & after much deliberation & thought, over the years, I have to one conclusion; that it is correct to think exactly what you want to think about it.

 Within Karma, every world religion, every book on Spirituality & theology, & every person from the most ignorant, to the most educated, all agree, on one thing at least, that there is a common thread that runs through our lives consistently which concerns itself with relation & consistency only. Everything else is how we as individuals choose to align ourselves with it from the start to the finish.

 Interesting, eh ?

ALAN NEVE: IN HONOUR OF A MAN I NEVER MET. 17 -07 -13

 To A Man I never Met,


 After I had read the sad news that Mr Alan Neve had been killed cycling to work in Holborn, I felt driven to write few lines in honour of this man. Something inside called upon me to do this. Perhaps I felt a vague connection to him ?

 The Standard had written a spread on this sad event, & it was very touching, to say the least. I felt as though I needed to write a few words about this man that I never met. A man that it would seem was at the peak of his life, enjoying the existence he had worked so hard to formulate. A man that others loved. Perhaps a man, that had I had the pleasure of meeting, I would of enjoyed hanging out with ? For sure, a man that people liked, enjoyed, spoke well of.

 Alan was a music man, & in my eyes, that makes him one of your own, & that`s enough of a reason for me to justify writing out a few lines in respect of this man, if I ever needed to justify my actions. In fact, he was so much a music man that he made it his profession, & he worked at the PRS in South London. So, does a very dear friend of mine, which floored me, & left me staggered that Alan was a colleague of a man that I happen to attribute greatness too. Which is why this saddest of events resonated so much with me, & why it hurt. When a friend hurts, it hurts all of us.

  Alan Neve seemed to me a person whom I would liked to have met. A good soul. A man that I could go to for advice, & know that it was solid. That it would not let me down when I applied it. I knew instantly, as I looked into his wonderfully cherubic eyes, that what I would of got from this man was true experience. Advice that would stand the test of time, stuff I could use, & apply to effectuate positive outcomes in my life. Safety, in the most masculine of ways, knowing that what I had under my belt was knowledge that worked.

 Naturally it came as no surprise for me to learn that Alan was a music fan. Usually when one looks this good its because there is some deep & personal connection to the spirit of music. For it is the spirit of music that is the spirit of love, & it is the love in a man`s soul that inspires others to strive for what is precious & meaningful to them. This is what makes people like Alan different to the general; they attract the best to them, & the best need people like Alan in their lives, even if it is only for a short period of time.

 All heroes need internalising, & it is this magnitude of power that they carry that inspires us, if we allow it, to embrace who we really are, & help us transform our loss into one of personal greatness. That is what makes them beautiful souls.

 So, in true form, from one music fan to another, & in my own humble way, I would like to dedicate a wonderfully fitting song to Mr Alan Neve. A man that I never met, but feel as though I did. This is a song that is passionate, strong, & will leave you shaking, the exact feeling that I sense would been left with had I been granted a presence with this great man.

  For you, Mr Alan Neve; `Let The Son Shine In ` by The Sunday Funnies.

 May you fly with the Lord Of The Universe.



 

DON`T EAT THE ANIMALS !

 After coming to terms with the notion that love is all there is within us as people,  I became confused to read that the Buddha did not do this. He worked hard to empty himself of everything that was a delusion, as much as he could whilst still living as a man. This way, he decided, would secure him a position of non-returning to the physical plane &, thereby continuing to live the life within cycles of futility, or karmically. He achieved this lack of attachment, to the impermanent nature of the earth, by meditation. He would sit contemplating the journey that the soul took when it departed from the body & how it would reincarnate, all the while embracing a new carapace based upon the various actions, intentions & thoughts of the previous life that the soul had lived.

 So, perhaps you can see how confused I felt when I read all this as a child ?  And in a strange way its never left me. I have never forgotten how I read about the Buddha dedicating to himself the continual striving to find detachment from the root of all delusion. For he saw all of the material plane as a delusion; whether it be love for another, a desire to help the inferior, or just eating, everything to him was a delusion, a trick of the mind, like an oasis in the desert, that draw one in, & then spews them out, laughing at them for being foolish  enough to get themselves into such a position.

 However, Buddha was wise to understand that he also needed the material plane to survive. As delusional as he saw it, & his place in it, he could also see the importance of utilising the barest of things for his on-going survival. He needed to find realisation before his body died, so whilst he was here he utilised the barest elements of it, & no more. Basic pabulum was the order of the day for Buddha. Just the smallest essentials would be suitable, & without any hardships contained within the nourishment. No nonsense, like killing or maiming for the so-called improvement of the food could ever be involved in its preparation because it would defeat the whole point of the object. This way Buddha could be assured of an eventual enlightenment whilst here on the planet.

 You & I may not be in the league of Buddha when it comes to living as a hermit, but its important to see just what his message was for future generations; simplicity in all you do. This way one keeps their karma to a minimum by living mindfully, & assuring a pleasant life whilst here on the material plane. It will also go a long way in securing a good flight into the next, if you want to look at things that far ahead ? But, even if your contented to look a little less further afield then your next incarnation, be cool whilst your here. Respect yourself, & others will respect you in return. Try not to eat anything that`s going to feel you eating it, one way or another, & that area of life will also respect you. You may need the help of a member of that kingdom one day, so respect it.

 As you may know by now, I`m a music man, & it has always been an addiction, like any other, just not so bad on the nervous system as some other addictions, either way, I`m hooked, & right now, I need a go on the turntable, so I`m out of here.

 Until the next time.

 Presagio

HUNTER S. SO NUTS, SO CRAZY, SO GENIUS !!!!

Not taking into account Hunters other three novels, such as Fear & Loathing In Vegas, & Hells Angels, this compilation of his thoughts & articles from his time as a hack on the Rolling Stone magazine, in the very early 1970`s, is just superb.

 The Great Shark Hunt will not disappoint anybody who has enjoyed the other novels. It raucous, stupid, powerful & ferociously intelligent. The nucleus of Gonzo Journalism or rather, what it went onto become throughout the duration of Thompsons career, is contained within Shark Hunt.

 Personally, the stand out piece of the whole book, for me, is the chapter on Water-Gate. Thompson`s inveterate hatred of Richard Nixon never seemed to of left him. Once being invited onto Nixon`s trailer at a presidential campaign, that Thompson was covering in `72, under condition that he only discuss with Nixon the mutual admiration they both shared for the same football team. Whilst blessed with this once in a life-time opportunity, Thompson magically used the metaphor of football to get the President to divulge all sorts of information on Vietnam, & other topics of the day. Although never being invited back, Thompson got the scoop of the day for the Rolling Stone, all written up in his own ferociously individualistic style, with not one minute of time left on his deadline, as usual.

 The greatness of this book is simply that it is so authentic, & not chewy at all. It leaves you craving more, which is why there is a sequel, but don`t worry about that at this stage of the game. Get into the writing & style of Dr Raoul`s Gonzo Journalism in The Great Shark Hunt, & you`ll never regret the journey he takes you on, although you may wonder at times why on earth you begun it. But that`s another story.

 If you read nothing else of Thompson`s this year, make sure you read this. It`s not boring, its bloody awesome, & well worth a fiver of anyone`s money. Get to it, my man.

 Presagio

RECORD COLLECTING. SOME THOUGHTS.

 Its always nice to get, within ones grasp ,a tender example of some stunning audio masterpiece, from long ago, but sadly, & this is the reason why they are so rare, there are so few of them around. Most people did not spend vast amounts of money on their records. They bought what was happening at the time, usually from Woolworths, or wherever, & played them to death until the next record came along. A lot can be explained, when buying old records today just by a quick study of a few factors, such as where the record owners lived, where they purchased their collection from, who they were as people, all these factors go a long way in determining what collections should be purchase today, & what should be stayed away from. Remember, `there`s no such thing as a free lunch `, especially when it comes to collecting good records.

 A chap rang me yesterday, from around the corner to me, to let me know he had some records that he had found in the garage of an old house. Naturally I went flying round there, & there was really good albums, but when I looked into a box that he told me not to look into as it had been reserved for another person, I found, probably one of the best finds I have ever come across in all my years of collecting, stuck there in that dirty old box. I began to shake, shiver, & had to forcibly stop myself from bursting into tears as I held it.

  Immediately, I explained to the chap what it was worth, & what I would pay him for it. He swallowed hard, looked me straight in the eye, & said; " I cannot I have already promised it to the other chap, & I am a man of honour ". I told him; " your misguided, the other chap offered you a pittance & that is because he is a record dealer " He agreed, & accepted that he had been ripped off, or was about to be, as the dealer had not even bothered to pick them up or pay him as yet. I walked away heartbroken & angry, cursing the dealer, & the man`s stupidity, but really, after all is said & done, it is I that is the silly one, because I am without a work of art such as that record.

 I hope that you find a gem one day. But remember, the Universe puts gems out there for the brave, & the stupid, to find one you have to decide which side of the fence you reside on. 

 Best

MOTHER. A BUDDHIST POEM

Mother "And can I ever cease to be Affectionate and kind to thee Who wast so very kind to me,- My mother........ Supremely compassionate, she constantly showers forth blessings on her children. Thus her right hand is always in the mudra of bestowing boons. The other hand grants the reward of fearlessness. Calmly and serenely poised, the Mother of all presents a picture of reassurance and inspiring confidence. From the delicate fingers of her two hands issue stems terminating into a full blown lotuses. These all associate the Mother Goddess with organic growth and the vegetative principle in nature."

SELF DEVELOPMENT, PT 5: INADEQUATE SELF- WORTH.

 After trying to find a relevant site that would enable me to align with others that could potentially help me confront my newly found issue, that has seen me block, or sabotage any success that has ever entered my life since I was young, I came across yours, & it really hit me hard. 

 Being, or rather feeling, thoroughly isolated & alone, for many years I took the chance to enter one of emergency services as an opportunity presented itself, three years ago, & in a nutshell, I completely sabotaged my career there. Even they did not want me to leave, but I did, & at the time, took great pleasure in ending it all. Now three years ago, I am totally broken by my decision. My life is not better, nor is it working, & I am deeply, deeply unhappy. That particular service will not accept me now. For two years I tried everything to return. I took courses, approached other services, got friendly with organisations, & people. Until recently, when I was accepted for an interview with another force. Out of 150 other candidates they chose 15, & I was one of them, for an interview & assessment. Sadly, I failed the interview, due to my nerves. Usually this would not of been an issue, but because of the amount of pressure that I had heaped upon myself, due to what I had been through, I failed at the very last hurdle. Now, I can reapply in September, for another go. 

 For the last year I have slowly begun building up an on-line vinyl record business. After a slow start it begun to take off, & the money flowed in, better quality records I was able to acquire for stock, until recently when I began losing interest, & advertising pretty poor quality records, not the sort that previous dealers were purchasing from me. Naturally, they abandoned me in droves, & last week I scraped in a little less than £50.00. Not good.

 For the last three months I have been using a brain entrainment product that really began to improve my life. My ability to write shot through the roof, & my confidence, & life took on a new hue. So, I decided to purchase the rest of the product & set about really allowing this system to do the job that previous years of meditation has not been able to do. Well, it has begun seriously digging up very deep seated issues that go right the way back to the beginning, & it seems as though they are all rooted in shame, or self loathing. Clearly, the system has brought all this up, as yesterday I felt pretty good, but I am not blaming the system, just the shock that all this coming up now. 

  The small business has been good, but the lack of interaction with others, & the isolation that it has been causing is tremendous, so I have begun to come away from it a little by introducing other external elements into my life, because I have been afraid that unchecked it could have a further deteriorating effect upon my life. As I am alone, & with very few to communicate with, I can seen that my life has become somewhat detached from any kind of conformity or normality, & it is now disturbing me. Whereas once it was a great privilege for me to have such isolation to work upon myself, now I am far stronger, it is fast becoming a boon, & must be stopped now. I am hesitant to call this a depression, because I have been through one of those in the past, & it really isn`t the same thing. 

 My younger brother fifteen years ago, was hit & killed by hit & run driver. The loss & pain at having him torn from my life left me bewildered, & in a deep shock for many years. The accident took a long time to come to terms with, & naturally it changed my life. I never took medication, only Psychotherapy, & then, later on, I found Buddhism. I went back to University as a post Graduate student to actually study Psychotherapy, then later Psychoanalysis. The persuasions taught me to cope effectively, as best I could, so the least I could in honour of them, was to teach myself its art. It has helped me to understand many things about myself, the universe & the laws that govern us as we travel along this path. 

 Buddhism has taught me as much too. I have an incredible amount of respect for it, & the thought of never being without, well, does not enter my head. I have meditated for years, & since finding out about the Brain Evolution System, it has been the main solid thing in my life. Like a steel rod that runs from one end of me to the next, Buddhism is solid, dependable, & teaches me everything about who I am, & am becoming. I drift away from it, but always I return. I look into other faiths, but back to me ( Buddha ) I will always return. Buddha said; For the man who does not discriminate he may as well be dead. I guess that sums up my feelings about Buddhism on some level.

 My writing enables me to relieve the pressure, as I find it cathartic. I also write this Blog, just sharing my thoughts & feelings with others, & I have recently began contacting magazines for advice on how to get started writing articles, mainly on music or psychology, so I am not sure how that will go, but it is important for me to say that I am trying to move on now. I am not just sitting around wishing I could change things any more, I`m really trying now

 It is very difficult to come away from the very serious issues that have surrounded my progression, that have inflicted so much misery upon my career & life style choices, but I can see that it has been a low self esteem, along with low self worth too. These two terribly unresolved issues have been the culprits, & at last it seems as though they are, at last, now under control. Hopefully, soon, I will be able to completely eradicate them through confronting inner fear, which is rooted in my childhood neglect.

 For another time.

BRAIN EVOLUTION SYSTEM: BINAURAL BRAIN WAVES FOR SUCCESS & HAPPINESS.

 Thought I`d send out a little report on the Brain Evolution System, after experiencing it now for around four months.

  Since I have been utilising this peculiar system, that I listens to through a pair of headphones every night for thirty minutes, my brain has feels like it has had a very positive work-over. The company, The Brain Evolution System, states that the benefits to the brain will outweigh what many years of meditation would provide. The trick is what is scientifically known as Binaural sound beats, & they've`e been around for years.

 The Monroe Institute in California has been harnessing brain waves & seeing good results since the early 1970`s. Colin Wilson wrote about the Monroe Institute in his Psychology of The Murderer. He wrote of his experience, stating that he came away feeling calmer than he had ever felt before, as he sat in a small room with the brainwaves going through him. The difference now though is that this new system takes the valid work The Monroe Institute has achieved, & then enhanced it by about a 1000 times. I am not sure how they have done it, nor am I too bothered, but all the information is there up on the site for you to peruse, should you have the calling. If anything was able to speed up the process of refining oneself from sitting quietly in meditation, to easily acquiring success, then I wanted to know what it was.

 As a person who advocates the benefits of meditation, & has actually been sitting in Zazen for many years, I was curious to say the least. So after reading Colin Wilson claims, I decided to check put the latest advancements in binaural sound beats, & what I found was The Brain Evolution System. The claim was that for the first time in the history of this style of treatment nobody had made the breakthroughs Brain Ev is claiming. To reinforce their confidence they give away a free fifteen minute download to experiment with.

 After a few weeks this little sound-wave snippet, that plays the sound of a river flowing under a bridge, began to show results. Gradually I begun to sense a general improvement in all areas of my life. My ability to concentrate more fully, apply myself, & generally feel vast improvement all over myself, left me feeling exceedingly confident, like I had found an old friend whom I could really rely upon. What I found generally was that I was could achieve, very easily, what had so far taken a long time to get. I was beginning to manifest more confidence, & in a much quicker time frame than before. The more I used it the more I began to feel better, & it seemed so easy; just lie back & enjoy the trip. All I had to do was dedicate twenty minutes a day to listening to the sounds with headphones on. It worked marvellously, & at times I simply found it hard to believe this was happening to me. Although, I did notice that the free download stopped providing me with my` Golden Balls`, they dried up, so to speak. After the first three months I began to feel as though I did not want to use the freebie any more. I began to feel irritated, & despondent because I knew that I was no longer getting anything out of the download. It felt as though I had suckled every last drop out of it, & now it was the time to up the stakes & purchase the full package, & I knew it was going to be a life-style choice I wanted. At this stage I knew that I had to research the whole system a little deeper, & look into what I would get out of it long term.

 What I found was that this system is the real deal. Many people are using it, & getting long term results in whatever area of their life they choose to apply it to, but it is expensive. The whole system can cost a whopping £200.00, or so, but I happen to think that it is worth it. I see no problem in purchasing things that I know will improve my existence. Cheapness is not a positive place to be, & I stay away from the type that break into a sweat at the thought of purchasing something nice, or even worthwhile.

 Applying this knowledge has inspired me to contact other like minded people. There is, I found, out there, a lot of people that swear by this & also an incredible amount of goodwill towards the system. I mean people are really getting into Brain EV, as it is affectionately known. People like top sports-people, politicians, world leaders, musicians, etc, all using it, & totally advocating its usage. Although, if I am completely honest with you, it was not until I became deadly serious about purchasing the full Brain Ev system that I met Francois.

 A wonderful, kind & generous soul, who has changed my life. Francois had used the System for the entire duration of seven months, & explained to me just how it had changed his life. We began discussing the benefits of the System on-line, & I came away thoroughly impressed with this man`s dignity & openness toward me. Through his knowledge, generosity & belief in me I have been able to throw myself wholeheartedly into the full system, & this has been happening now .for around three weeks. If it was not for Francois introducing me to the full Brain EV System, I simply would not be where I am today. My self- worth & esteem have grown, my confidence is at a new high, & real, honest love is entering my life.

  Not all of you will be fortunate enough to meet a Francois, as I have been, but you can read this, & do yourself a massive favour by checking out The Brain Evolution System. It really is worth it, & if you want to make a difference to your life, & bring about self improvement, just by lying on your back for twenty minutes a day, hook up with the Brain EV & download their free sample. It will be the best option to get started with, & you`ll immediately notice the difference.

 Metta