ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS KILL ~

  Everything depends upon how much value you place upon yourself

 If your partner is in denial then you will have an uncomfortable relationship. You will denigrate your own autonomy to fit in with his  a relationship so that you can maintain a relationship with someone that does not even respect himself, let alone you. In my eyes, that is a waste of your life. 

 If you take this course of action you will, eventually, find yourself without real friends & continually emanating a feeling of worthlessness to anyone you come into contact with. People you meet, especially men, will see you as fair game & attempt to abuse you for their own gratification. You, in turn, will see this as some kind of affection because you are in a lifeless relationship that is centred around a dead man, & keep doing it. Then later, after it has hit home what you have been doing to yourself, you will become more passive in your relationship, but this time it will be out of guilt, leading you to be treated even worse by your husband. Jealousy will enter the picture because the man you really like will be free & able to do what he wants while you suffer in your dysfunctional, symbiotic relationship. Then some time later a breakdown will occur & because there will be no real friends left that really care about you, because you got rid of them all years ago with your poor lifestyle choices, you will consider the prospect of suicide. You wont do it, of course, but it will be a cry for help, & cause you inner-despair. This despair will grow & you will become ill. This illness will last, depression does, & your husband will see this as his Que to leave you for another person who `understands him`. This creature would have been hanging around in the background for years, & will probably have known him since they were young. Then the real, frightening prospect of suicide will return, but this time, because your in your fifties & depressed, you will probably do it. This man would then have stolen your life from you & the saddest thing is that all along you allowed him to do it. Men that once adored you for your Goddess status, like me, will be married & happy in their own relationships & running around in parks playing with their own children, without depression. This tragedy will be made worse for you because the only happiness you will be able to see will be the long forgotten happiness of your past. Naturally, your family will come to you, but they would have been so exasperated by your insistence to `make it work` over the years, that they will just teeter round the edges & nothing will ever, ever be able to give you back the lost years that you gave away so easily to someone who never gave a shit about you.

 If I were you I would go with your instincts & stay well away from poisonous bullies that make you feel crap & confused. 

 Hope that helps ?