Friday, 19 October 2012

BULLYING. LEARNING TO TRUST AGAIN

  Today during meditation I suddenly came to understand what the last few months have really all been about; My full transformation. This morning everything just fell into place. I suddenly realised that I no longer needed to feel the way I have been feeling & that, if I so desired, I could have all the things that I desired & that my karma had changed. What came up earlier, & as I write to you today, it still remains, is sensation of deep happiness, & relief that it is all over. The inner battle is done & I feel, for the first time positive, but with real conviction. A Peak Experience feeling, & as I do not like to continue feeling as though there is so much more to work through, this really is a breakthrough. An authentic expansion of consciousness that will not let up, but persists upon growing, as though it has a life of it`s own. And in some way, I guess it is. I think that it is being allowed to grow & catch-up. There is a lot of catching up to do, that`s for sure. Which is now what I  want to do. ormation. This morning everything just fell into place. I suddenly realised that I no longer needed to feel the way I have been feeling & that, if I so desired, I could have all the things that I desired & that my karma had changed. What came up earlier, & as I write to you today, it still remains, is sensation of deep happiness, & relief that it is all over. The inner battle is done & I feel, for the first time positive, but with real conviction. A Peak Experience feeling, & as I do not like to continue feeling as though there is so much more to work through, this really is a breakthrough. An authentic expansion of consciousness that will not let up, but persists upon growing, as though it has a life of it`s own. And in some way, I guess it is. I think that it is being allowed to grow & catch-up. There is a lot of catching up to do, that`s for sure. Which is now what I  want to do.

 Many things have begun looking up, & I cannot get away from this incredible feeling of optimism. It as though I cannot shake off this lingering sense of happy anticipation, that just keeps growing. Colin Wilson, states that if we can continue to capitalise on our feeling of positivity we cannot help but to stay with it, thereby turning our life around to exactly the way we want it to go. If I can concentrate on keeping myself busy & focused upon my main objectives than, like Maslow`s Peak Experience theory, I can, in fact, stay where I want to be emotionally. Sounds irrational, but why should`nt I stay positive & optimistic, as opposed to miserable & forlorn ? The answer is that I do not have to. Depression is an indulgence in many ways. This is because one has a choice with everything that they do. One can choose a feeling of negativity, or not. It is, as, the Eastern philosophers practise, a question of non-attachment to one emotions. The middle way, treating them as though they are just guests, or even an imposition, & then disregarding them. We do, as a society, I feel, get far too attached to our emotions. They control us, determine our fate, & direct the course of our lives. It may be worth mentioning here a piece of research I was reading done in the 1960`s that stated that the majority of people, generally speaking, that suffer from depression were actually neglected & not given enough support, & positive affirmation, by their significant others. What this could mean in their capacity as adults is that depression, & all its symptoms, although subjective, could be a form of attention seeking. When taken alongside the Eastern philosophy mentioned earlier, that one has the choice in all matters of the emotions, the theory holds water. Either way, a healthy positive person, & not one suffering from delusions, is a far more formidable character in the world of the masculine, or external society. This type of person attracts to them only the best, & that which is in accordance with how they feel about themselves.

 This is not, however, a person who is highly dominant, egotistical, & claims the success of everything, even when they are part of a team. This is a narcissist, & has no place in the world of the confident, or successful. These extremely weak, pathetic types cover up with obfuscation & lies. They are sadly the small percent of people that fall into the highly dominant. This person is a bully, a liar, & will obstruct others from making the advancement that they want, using the dark arts of obfuscation, smokescreens & denial. When they are confronted they will usually rely upon some non-linear logic to put their justification across. They attract an extraordinary following too. The fan base of this type usually enjoys being bullied, a kind of second rate masochist, that given half a chance will revert to their leaders stupidity the second they turn their back.

 The highly dominant is a person who was beaten as a child, neglected, or abused. They find being around better quality types difficult & straining, because they are continually having to stay on top of their game of lies which in turn frustrates everyone else, causing more enemies than friends, & leaving them ill & depressed.  The need to cover up feelings of weakness, & inferiority is paramount.  Everything about this type of person is aimed at keeping others away from them & it is this that people get sick of. Obviously they can become a great burden on the environment in all sorts of sociological ways. But most of all because of their sheer immaturity they drain those that are close & are a  get in the way of all progression. This type are literally a slave to their emotions, & a receptacle for others peoples pleasures. This is not, however, a person who is highly dominant, egotistical, & claims the success of everything, even when they are part of a team. This is a narcissist, & has no place in the world of the confident, or successful. These extremely weak, pathetic types cover up with obfuscation & lies. They are sadly the small percent of people that fall into the highly dominant. This person is a bully, a liar, & will obstruct others from making the advancement that they want, using the dark arts of obfuscation, smokescreens & denial. When they are confronted they will usually rely upon some non-linear logic to put their justification across. They attract an extraordinary following too. The fan base of this type usually enjoys being bullied, a kind of second rate masochist, that given half a chance will revert to their leaders stupidity the second they turn their back.

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